- iCeCastle - Freezing Space

The day started @ 6:00am.. Quickly drove to nearest Petrol station after washed up, grabbed a RedBull  to kill my sleepiness. The exam session start at 7:30am, I’m was the early bird, since there was a wrong print of IC number in my exam slip. My eyes barely could open..

The coordinator brought us to the waiting room. Waited for 2 minutes and there was no sign of examiner. The room turned into pasar malam, the students were like back to kindergarten, talking and laughing.

As one of my favorite reader, DD always complained, it has not been updating for a month.. ok, maybe 2 months. *Lost count*

Let’s start with something AMBITIOUS, BLOKUS! This is the item on top of my To-Buy-List. It’s an abstract strategy board game I found in a café. This is for two to four players, the objective is to seal off an area for opponents and to reduce the area the opponents can access.

Knocked out another 3 subjects with flying scores.. extremely happi. It has been worried since the last trimester started, Numeric subject is always the biggest fear.. this time I counter-killed algebra and linear programming! Bobby 1 – 0! Ole.. Ole.. Ole..

Many things have kept me busy.. Busy moving office in the month of October.. been working late for many nights. New office campus is tremendously grand and handsome. I have a dream HR room that I want.. I have 4 recruitment rooms, waiting zone, big cubicle and HR store. Goodbye to the 3 acres and BIG HI to 26 acres.

Long waited for short trimester. I love short trimester.. Registered 5 subjects.. Missed 2 lecturing classes, Damn!! Probably will be busy complaining with ton of assignments later.

Loving the new TVB drama series.. Beyond The Realm Of Conscience (宫心计). Drama everyday ^^!!

MUET exam, done for the speaking.. rajin pronouncing R & S related words: perspective, pessimistic, primarily, resignation etc.. turned out I din use any of those.. arggghhh... Listening, Writing and Summarizing exams on this weekend..

Bobby written this in Juanda Airport – 2/Nov/09.

It’s 4:30 in the morning, the insomniac hit me again.. What is the root cause?

a.     Too excited about the semester break

b.     Watched too much TV series

c.     Health issues (too much diet coke / brain is functioning too well)

d.     Blame on the weather

e.     ALL OF THE ABOVE

Been living happily ever since last Friday, exam is over, I got promoted, I removed the stitches, mooncake festival is here, parties fever..


Finished 3 books of The avatar in 2 weeks.. Thanks to this year Emmy Award, for a TV freak like me, I downloaded 2 full seasons of 30 Rock as starter.. I finished 40 episodes in 2 days.. Should I proud of be myself? YES, I just broke my self-record again! Tina Fey is a genius! Alec Baldwin is hilarious.. the show is BBQ very entertaining..
 

Hell ya.. God bless my semester break, Peter priest just hit my door this morning by surprise. He passed me 2 holy books (I din read yet) with 30 minutes of religion talks under the flaming hot sun! I’m damn admiring the endurance and belief.. a Caucasian who speaks Mandarin walking door to door for Jesus Christ.. God bless you and I shall stop cursing! Oh Lord, forgive me..

Love tip of the week for guy folks, research says if eating out, girls feel BBQ sweet if the boyfriend knew what to order for her without she picking from the food menu..

Today I decided the go for wisdom teeth extraction. I made the appointment at 11.30 morning. As advise by the nurse, I took very heavy breakfast before I go.. she warned me that I’m forbidden to eat within 10 hours after the surgery.

I walked in to the clinic, there were 2 nurses addressed me courteously and did the registration. The clinic was quiet, very quiet. The nurse took me to a room with a giant machine, she explained this is the x-ray scanning machine. I was asked to put on a silly heavy anti-radiation shirt, took off my earring & necklace, I bit on the plastic thingy and the machine started spinning surrounded me.. there were 2 pieces of scanning devices spinning around me.. X-ray was done as quick as juz 30 seconds..

I waited at the reception for 10 minutes. Flipped few magazines.. I wished that the surgery would be as easy as the x-ray taking. I asked to go in surgery room #1. I met Doctor Ng, he is short & stocky, he greeted me and I was asked to sit on the bench. He explained me my teeth & gum structure. I have total of 3 wisdom teeth, 1 at top & 2 at the bottom. 1 at top is in unfavorable position as it is totally hiding. 2 at the bottom are favorable positions for surgery purpose but insufficient space to remove. He asked whether I want to operate today, I agreed, I know I could stay at home rest & recovery during the coming holidays. Also, the wisdom teeth already caused me enough pain to chew foods.. I decided.

Upon my agreement, the nurse passed me a consent form to sign. I asked to take pills, cap celexin & cap celebrex aka antibiotic & pain-killer. I laid down on the bench, spotlight shone on me, I saw a syringe towards me, it’s really the biggest syringe I ever saw. It’s steel form and at least 7 inches. Doc pressed me down and starts injecting in my right gum, cheek, muscle or whatever u call it. While injecting the anesthesia the nurse was patting my shoulder, either she wants to calm me down or distract me.. regardless the reason, I juz closed my eyes and the injection was done least possible pains. Guess the patting did help.. I rinsed my mouth and it came out some bloods.

Waited for 5 minutes, I started losing my senses. I couldn’t feel my right side of cheek, even though I know it’s caused by anesthesia but I was still feeling very nervous. This is second time I couldn’t feel my body(First time was dengue admission). To make myself less gan-jiong, I try to keep my eyes closed but I when heard the noise of chainsaw, I frightened. I saw the nurse is putting 2 pipes into my mouth, 1 is the sucking-pipe and washer pipe, at the same time doc is working on his surgery. I have no idea what is happening, I juz hearing chainsaw & drilling sounds. I couldn’t feel anything. Thanks to my buddy Terence scared me that the operation sometimes would failed and caused me extra pains.. I just hoping the operation gets over soon. The longer I waited the more fears I have; my body is terribly shaking by auto-reflex. At this point, I saw the white sucking pipe oledi turned COMPLETELY RED. I tried to calm myself by telling this gonna be over soon. After awhile, I can feel that the doctor is trying to pull out something, but failed, then drilling started again, pulling, drilling, pulling drilling.. countless times repeated. Finally the doc spoke, he said “tough case, finally it came out.” He handed stitches tools from the nurse. The stitching did not cause any pain, coz the anesthesia still effectual. But I knew I been sewed.

Doc showed me my shattered wisdom teeth. Due to insufficient of space, doc has to break the wisdom teeth into pieces.. and take out completed. The face swollen badly.. I hope it fully recover soon.. also hope the remaining 2 wisdoms dun give me any problem pls.......

As a MBC (Malaysian-Born-Chinese), I believe that I’ve been living in the one of the most diverse country in the world. More than 20 years of living experience told myself that I love this piece of land.. I’ve been hearing complaints from friends and colleagues about Malaysia’s government.. And they want to move out, moving out or already moved out the country.. *tragic*

Take away the political issues, I will proudly to say that “I’M A MALAYSIAN!!” like the TV advertisement indoctrinates so.. I have too many reasons for that..

September month AKA the Ramadan month, I been asking my non-Muslim friends and colleagues surround me about Ramadhan fasting.. Surprisingly, most of them only know that the Muslims only allowed to consume foods during certain timing but not the reasons behind it.. 

Fasting means to abstain completely from foods, drinks, sex, and smoking, before break of the dawn till sunset, during the entire lunar month of Ramadhan. Fasting is a means that makes us appreciate and give thanks for pleasures. Fasting means giving up eating, drinking and intercourse, which are among the greatest pleasures. By giving them up for a short time, we begin to appreciate their value. This motivates human to be grateful for them.  This is juz one of the reason, there are quite few more reasons behind it..

July ended with 4848’s farewell. August has started with real busy... it has began with 1823 new car Proton Persona. The feeling of getting new car of coz is excited, proud, aroused, relief and extremely happi.. Mum was happi equally as I am.. happi family.. ho ho ho..

First week, Life as a student has been busy with assignment and course works. Killed 1 Human Resource Management’s assignment. Hatred of number subject is back.. this time Managerial Math owned me.. cracking head on the X, Y, Z..  first week ended with Neth Neth’s house party with his convocation..

Second week, BFF Tobe hired me as a tour guide for her good-friend SL’s visit. No deny, it was quite failure.. It was totally out of expectation..Entirely blamed on Tobe! Nevertheless, I think SL she still enjoyed the night.. Will redeem myself if I have the chance! =)
Uncle thunder struck my PC + Printer.. approximate 700 bucks gone for repair & purchases. Pissed & blamed myself..

Third week, Drama drama drama.. endless dramas.. Conflict is always the last thing I asked for.. I’ve been trying hard to become a optimist. If I could re-write Bible, I would emphasize PEACE is the ultimate quality human is looking for.. beside fought with best buddy, I always know HR always not the nicest job. I felt so bad frustrated when I was blamed for sumthing that wasn’t my fault. I tried explain.. End of day, I told myself LIVE WITH IT.. Also, it turned out I’m weak and incapacitated.. I’m deeply sorry & I apologized to the north.. I not sure what else I could say or do..


The third week seems forever to pass, for very simple reason that my big day is here.. Celebrated the 26th birthday in Genting.. Make a wish – World Peace!! Wee wit.. I have been using the same reason to buy myself many presents: Car, Camera, Goggles, Tees, Undies and etc.. Gift, the only motivation for me to celebrate birthday. Otherwise, there is need not to have a reminder to tell myself "YOU ARE GETTING OLDER!"


Last week of August was like a blink of eyes, beloved boss granted me a birthday leave.  The week with 4 working days is endured easily. Celebrated Tobe’s burfday on Friday night and the long stretch of holidays arrived. Looked at the facebook update page, National day has been full of curse..

  

Look forward to September 2009, I have totally forgot another 3 assignments are holding back..
Wooden man VS Gingerbread man~!

One day, after the school exam, the girl called the boyfriend.

"Honey, I got off early today, are you free to pick me home today?"

"It’s fine, honey, give me 5 minutes."

It was 2 in the afternoon, the sun was raging hot.. 5 minutes over.. she looked at the watch.. 10 minutes over.. he did not show up yet.. she started worry.. after 15 minutes, finally he came..she asked, “what took you so long?” He took it frivolously and answered “I was watching TV..” the girlfriend was angry. He knew and he said "I’m sorry.”  He is a self importance and high egotism guy. He never said sorry to anyone. It was the first apology he made to the girlfriend. She looked at him and she forgave him. He is the type of person that never explain, never argue, he never had a fight with his girlfriend. As long as he said sorry to the girlfriend, she would actually forgive him. He would only apologize to his girlfriend, the only one.

She blamed him for not changing his attitude and never changed or improved even though he admitted his faults. She was upset, she thinks the boyfriend was using the apologies for sheltering himself. After 59times of apologies, she finally dropped her tears and told "Please stop telling me that you’re sorry if you’re not intend to change. Please stop making me to believe that you would actually change.” He was guilty, he hugged her tight and said “I’m sorry” for the 60th times.

After a period, the girlfriend started distrust him..

"What happened to you lately?" the girl asked in the phone.

"Nothing happened"

"Then why you behaved like this?"

"I said nothing happened"

"Do you know that i’m feeling very insecure and I’m so worried about you.. do you really care about me?" the girlfriend started crying..

The boyfriend silent for seconds and told “I’m sorry..”

"I don’t want to hear sorry anymore" she hanged up

He never called back, the girl thinks he doesn’t care about her. That was his 99th sorry..

They both never contacted ever since that day, sometimes she received calls without voice. She knew it was him.. After a month, she passed by his office. She decided to look for him. The office colleagues told that he has quit the job one month ago. The girl called his mobile and left a voice message, hoping he would return call. She started worry him. She called the house phone, but it ringed but never picked up. She dropped by to his house, but no one was there. She guessed maybe he has shifted somewhere else to work, or maybe family trip or perhaps, he has a new girlfriend and moved to somewhere else. While she is thinking all the possibilities, the phone rang.. it was from the boyfriend’s mother.

"He has admitted to the hospital"

"How?" the girl shocked

"Even though he asked me not to tell you, but come and meet him please.."

She took a cab to the hospital, she was panicked and she has no clue about what happening. She ran to his room, she saw him laying down without much movements. The boyfriend was made an eyed-contact and looking with her.

She started asking “What is happening? Why you didn’t tell me?”

He didn’t answer, he just keep looking at her.

"Answer me, why are you not talking?"

He dropped a tear from his eye, he used his last body strength to say “I’m sorry”. He closed his eyes thereafter.

"Please don’t pretend. Why sorry? I don’t want you to say sorry. You wake up, answer me." She cried next to him, pulling his shirt. "Why are you saying sorry? Give me a reason, I’m not gonna forgive you, you please wake up, I beg you.. wake up..I want to hear from you, please..”

This is his 100th sorry.

The nurses and doctor pulled her away for rescue. She was totally blanked.. He never left her, just that she not able to touch him. Sometimes she dreams of him telling her how he is doing. He is still accompany her, in her mind, in her heart, she is still thinking he is calling her "honey" most of the times.. Just that, she not going to hear anymore “Sorry” from him.

After few months later, the boyfriend’s mother gave her a box. There are 100 of photographs inside the box. At the back of each photo marked a “sorry” story that happened to both of them.

1st sorry – Honey, I didn’t mean to be late today. I know this is lame reason, but I got my heartache before I go out. I couldn't move, I tried my best, forgive me please.

2nd sorry – Honey, I..

3rd sorry – Honey, I..

100th sorry – Honey, I didn’t mean to leave you behind. Just that god did not give me a chance to take care of you, put the ring on your ring-finger. You are the first girl I said sorry, also the person I would like to spend my life with. Forgive me couldn’t bring you the happiness, I’ll be your angel, I’ll bless you always. Don’t cry, I don’t wish to see you cry, I love you.

He took the last photo in hospital, he was pale and skinny. He gave his best smile, and he took the 100th photo. She hugged the photos and cried in pain.